Note: Just after I posted Poor Grandma, Part 1 I could not access, edit or otherwise even see my posts. Mr. Steady was able to find & solve the problem for me...thank you, dear!
For Part 1, read here
There are many modern conveniences, joys, and treats that I enjoy that "Grandma" never did.
For example, I thoroughly enjoy having a library tens of thousands of books a few blocks from my home. I love that books are not as expensive as they once were and my boys can visit places all around the world through the stories they read. If you've read this blog for any length of time you know how much I treasure books & reading.
I enjoy my running water, my shower, my washer & dryer - especially with all those cloth diapers, and my dishwasher. I enjoy entertaining and hosting parties, it's fun to do something special for friends. But do I do it because I want to bless my friends or do I do it so they will be impressed?
I enjoy looking at all the different and varied crafty projects available through Pinterest. I am glad I don't have to make all of my families clothing or grow our own food. I am glad I don't have to hitch up the horse and wagon every time I leave the house (although lately I'm thinking a horse would be more reliable!)
There is nothing inherently wrong with hosting dinner parties, painting your walls new colors or wanting your children's education to be more varied and diverse than your own. But when we start comparing, judging, feeling discontent with our lives because of these things it just feels wrong.
Please don't misunderstand, I am preaching to myself here - I want to serve God, love my family, love others, acknowledge my blessings, bless others - not out of the abundance of my blessings but bless others sacrificially. I don't want to add more lists of things I must do, heaping rules and more unrealistic expectations on myself.
So because I was born for such a time as this, I will live in the moment, not pining for the past, not hoping for the future. I will embrace the things that are useful to achieve His purposes for my life and chuck the things that bind. I will not question or judge how other people spend their time, their money, their resources. I will not presume that because you do things differently that I am worse or you are better. I will add beauty and peace to my life and discard misplaced expectations and appraisals.
My value is in Christ alone. Am I pleasing Him? Is this what He desires for me? Is this how He desires I spend my time? Is what I am feeling true, noble, lovely, pure....? Dear Lord, keep my eyes focused on you & may my life and actions, decisions and words be pleasing and glorifying to You alone!